Monday, April 13, 2015

The Greater YES is around the corner....

Have you ever been told NO by the Lord and just wandered why? Maybe it brought  so much heartache and pain. Maybe even made you mad?

That happend to me ON Saturday.  I wanted to go see a Christian  comedian. I had looked forward to it for quite some time.. But, because of the pain in my back & legs I was unable to go. I cried myself to sleep  after the family left.

But... God was telling  me  no because He had a greater Yes in store for me.. You see on Monday (today) My husband & I  were planning  a picnic. I wanted to be able to enjoy some time  with  him. God knew that wouldn't have  happened if I had went to the show.   I love Tim Hawkins but I love my husband more!!

Today was a great day!!! The weather was beautiful. We packed a lunch, our bibles, chairs and coffee and sat out at the lakes for several hours. It was so enjoyable.

I am thankful for the times I can spend with my bestfriend. Mike has been by my side through all our ups and downs. I sometimes think he got the short end of the stick in this deal!!  He is amazing with dealing with  all my back issues. I admire him so much. We have grown up together. We were talking about the time when we almost gave it all up and quit. We were going through a broken time, but the blessing was right around the corner.
If we had quit we would have missed out on the blessing of walking in ministry  together and the blessing of restoration. I believe God has brought us closer together because when you almost loose something you fight harder than ever to never loose it again!!!

Again God said No!! He allowed us to endure in the hardship and not go through seperation because his greater Yes was right around the corner!!!

How about You? Had God told you No!!!

Today pray about the situation or your circumstances. Pray that God will give you the endurance to hold ON and wait for your Greater YES!!!!

A Greater Yes

By: The Whisnants~

"It starts with a desire, planted deep within your heart
You pray in faith, and wait for God to move
Time passes and you wonder
Did He hear me when I called?
Should I even have prayed that prayer at all?
You never pray a prayer, your Father will not answer
He can’t ignore His child’s earnest request
While you’re waiting and believing
For what you thought was best
Trust God if He says no….. You’re still blessed
There must be a greater yes

There comes a time when child-like faith
Must graduate to trust
Trials come and you’re convinced you’re on your own
But the teacher’s often silent
While you’re in the hardest test
But He’ll answer when it’s time with what is best
Sometimes God will answer – just like we prayed
Then other times what’s on His mind
Is a better plan, a another way, a greater yes"

Sunday, April 12, 2015

My flesh will FAIL......

My deepest desire is to be thankful for this situation so that God can use it for HIS good. 
"Be careful not to complain about anything, even the weather, since I am the Author of your circumstances. The best way to handle unwanted situations is to thank Me for them. This act of faith frees you from resentment and frees Me to work My ways into the situation, so that good emerges from it." Sarah Young Jesus Calling~
 It is definitely hard at times; My spirit is willing but my flesh is weak. It's moments like this when my limitations are excluding where I have the hardest time. But I know God is walking beside me, he has whispered many times and has assured me that In His Timing I WILL BE HEALED!
 God's ways are higher than my ways and his thoughts are higher than my thoughts.  I can not imagine his timing and how HE will choose to heal me. Healing comes in all forms.  It can come by God providing money for the surgery, a doctor who would be willing to provide services or just simplify by His Hand. This is the Faith part!!! 
His Idea of healing and my idea of healing can look different as well. 
Physically I have to be prepared for the fact that I may not be perfectly healed until the day I meet Jesus. I will tell you this, I believe I will be doing back flips and dancing when the day comes!!!!  
Emotionally I believe he heals me each and every time I go through difficult times, such as yesterday.  The pain can be overbearing and overwhelming to deal with in of its self.  Then I become emotionally drained as I watch my family continually live there lives. I deeply desire to be apart of what they are doing and try to keep a good attitude.  God reminds me of HIS longsuffering and HIS faithfulness.  He reminds me of HIS Love, His Mercy and  HIS GRACE.  He reminds me that THOSE who SOW in tears  WILL REAP in JOY....  
Spiritually  I grow each and every time I struggle. I will not go through this alone.  God walks along side of me.  I have prayed for him to take this Storm away from me, BUT he has CHOOSE to Walk with ME THROUGH the STORM.   Satan tries to fight by allowing me to believe I can not turn to others; My family, friends and prayer warriors.  This journey of battling Chronic Pain in my back is a long journey.   But, through it I desire for Christ to shine through me so that I can help others who struggle through their STORMS.
These storms in our lives produce Faith and Trust. We will not always be perfect..  We will stumble.  This is where we get to show God's glory. Because it's in our weaknesses that he is STRONG.  
For example, yesterday I had a very bad day. One of the discs is resting on a nerve which causes me a lot of nerve pain.  The best way I can explain is a combination of a pinched nerve, my leg being asleep and a Charlie horse all at the same time. As a result I loose feeling in my leg, and it has a tingly feeling in it constantly and I can't feel my toes.  Some days that pain is manageable but yesterday it was  not.  I cried off/on most of the day so I was emotionally drained. As I tried everything to relieve some of the pain the closer it got for us to have to leave to go to the Tim Hawkins concert.  He is MY FAVORITE COMEDIAN. I was looking forward to seeing HIM.  Needless to say I was not able to go. Once my family left.. I laid on the couch and cried myself to sleep.  I prayed that God would show up because I was frustrated. How am I supposed to use my pain for HIS GLORY if I am STUCK ON A COUCH ALL BY MYSELF???
 I was slowly falling into a pit of SELF PITY! 
A friend texted and said she was on HER way to come visit. She brought Chinese and stayed with me the entire duration of my family being gone!!!
God sent her to lift UP my spirits!!   
I stand ON GOD'S promises: We are going to have moments where they seem like a valley. We are going to be broken. We will become weak. WE will struggle.  We may even fall apart.  But we can rest assured that
   In the meanwhile as I Wait for Him and for HIS name to be glorified through this chronic pain I am most grateful for:

 AND  all of YOU!!!!

What Storm are you going through?
What verses are you lead to for encouragement?
How can you be a blessing to others during your own Storm?
I pray that you never feel as if you have to go through your own battle yourself. I pray that you will boldly have the confidence to share with someone that you can trust so that THEY can run to the throne FOR YOU!! We must be stripped from our pride and humbly seek Christ in all situations and circumstances. 

Thursday, April 2, 2015

Our unfiltered life

Okay here it is... I have open my door to our unfiltered life!! I can't believe I am doing this but several people have made comments about my house Never being messy.. It isn't the truth! Two different times in my life that my house wasn't a priority.. 
When the kids were younger; there were blanket forts, cushions of the couch, toys on the floor, dishes in the sink, stacked papers everywhere, & piled laundry..
When my marriage began to unravel and I was running from the problem:  I choose the
 importance of: sports, volunteering at school, Parent committees, church functions. etc. Etc. My house work was never done. This drove my husband crazy. In fact, one day he came home and asked if I had all the energy to invest and other things that truly didn't  matter then why wouldn't I spend a little time investing in something that did matter? What He meant was I completely disrespected him by keeping our home in a manner that brought division, chaos and distraction. He saw me put very little effort into our home and our relationship that to him outside things mattered more importantly! This was building a wedge in our marriage. I wasn't respecting him and in return he wasn't showing me love~

BUT NOW MY KIDS ARE OLDER. THEY SHARE RESPONSIBILITY.  FOR THE MOST PART OUR HOUSE IS IN ORDER... Although, now you see home school books laying around on most days!! 

I need order! I can't function when my house looks like this. I get too distracted.. But, let's face it..We all get behind and this is the result!! Not too mention my paper work lacks as well. Instead of being proactive like I would prefer I end up being reactive!!

 In a perfect world my house would be spotless, my kids would be perfect (), my husband & I would never fight, and our bills would always be paid!

But, I live in the real world... My housework & paperwork get behind. My kids bicker & fight, argue & torment one another. My husband & I have our moments, And.. It seems like every time I turn around there are  "extras" that need to be paid. 

Regardless, I have tried hard to make whatever house I am living in a HOME! I want friends, family & guests to feel welcomed, loved and comfortable  in our home. 

The glimpse into our home while not organized is our unfiltered life!! It shows us being real!!  This represents my life on days I don't  necessarily care.

We have these moments with our walk with Christ. There are days we just don't care. Days we let sin overcome us. Or days we continue to run away from the love of Christ.  The good news is Christ died for us so that He could clean US UP... He took OUR sin upon HIS shoulders.. We may have days that we don't care, but Christ ALWAYS cares.

  I can rest assured that although there are times when my house may be out of order I can stand on the promise that 

God is a God of Order and peace; not of chaos and confusion~

The question is... Is my days filled with peace or chaos? I believe its okay for my house to look like this occasionally. I need to remember to prioritize according to life, seasons, situations or circumstances.

I have since learned that hard lesson.  I remind myself constantly to evaluate my priorities. If my house is like this simply because I am down for several days that is one thing, if its because I am choosing to invest energy in other things first, leaving no energy for the home or my family then that is another. I need to remember that my family is first ministry.. If I have time for work, friends, & hobbies & fun.. Then I surely have time for what's most important to me..
And that is My Family & My Home~