Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Day 15!!!!

       Today was a very productive day as we chose to utilize the library to do our school work... It's amazing how much you can get done when the distractions of your home are not beckoning you!! I realized though, that I can not put so much off, as THAT is what overwhelms me!!! Why do we do this to ourselves, we wait until we are backed into a corner before we feel the need to accomplish or achieve our goals, only to find that we are mentally drained by the end of the task!!! UGH.....
     On a plus note, we received a love note from my mom today.  Always good to hear from people back at home! Nice to feel the support....
    The Missions Conference went well last night.. Looking forward to another nice evening!!

Monday, January 30, 2012

Day 14!!!

Today we prepare for Our Missionary Friend, from Bosnia,  to arrive and stay with us for a week.  Our chuch is having their week long Missions Conference.  We are looking forward to what the week will bring!!

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Day 11, 12 &13!!!!! (ha.. ha..)

Okay Okay some may think this is cheating combining three days into my 30 day challenge; however I just spent 34 HOURS @ Camp this weekend putting on an Awesome 2012 Winter Camp..

Friday: Was a day of setting up, planning last minute details, practicing skits and first day of Camp
  Once the Campers got there the activities included: Mission Impossible, Sumo Ball, Chapel,
 Night Fire with Sm ore's
Saturday: Activities included: Human Knot, Obstacle Race, Making box sled's, team building challenges, Ice   Wall, Rock Wall, Zipline, Chapel, Dinner Theatre, Broom Ball tournament
Sunday: Chapel, Clean up, and announcing the 2012 Winners of Winter Camp (as we did a challenge all weekend long) last day of camp, sending campers home!

I had a blast having the opportunity to plan the programming for this event. I had amazing help and was under great direction of the director.  I have to say, I learned a lot from this experience! There is a lot of work that is involved with planning, and I find great joy to see the results of that work play out in the laughter, and smiles of the campers! This is a learning experience for me, all weekend long I continually saw how I could improve or do things differently. In time, and with practice and most importantly with Gods' help I will be able to achieve those goals.

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Day 10!!!

Lyvvie and I, along with 5 other Mothers and their daughters,  had such a great day making poodle skirts for our Sock Hop we will be having for our Co-op!
The Sock Hop will be our Valentines Party!  Lots of fun things planned; a box decorating contest, pinata, milkshakes, hula-hoop contest, limbo and much more! The kids and I have been making paper mache "music notes" for the decorations along with the pinatas!!!  We can not WAIT!!

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Day 9!!!!

                                                        Proverbs 3:35
"Trust in the Lord with all you heart, lean not in your own understanding; and all thy ways acknowledge him and he will make your path straight"

"The seasons of life"

There was a man who had 4 sons
he wanted to teach them not to judge things to quickly
he sent them afar to look at a pear tree
the first son he sent in the winter
the second son in the spring
the third son in the summer
and the youngest in the fall
when they gotten back, he gathered them together
to describe what they saw
the first son said the tree was ugly, bent and twisted
the second son said it was covered in green buds and full of promise
the third disagreed; he said it was laden with blossoms that smelled so sweet 
and looked so beautiful it was the most graceful thing he had ever seen
the last son disagreed with all of them; said the tree was ripe and drooping with fruit,
full of life and fulfillment
The man then explained to his sons that they were all right, that they had only saw one season of the trees' life
He told them that you can not judge a tree or person by one season.  That the essence of who they are and the pleasure, joy and love that comes from life can only be measured at the end when all the seasons are up.

If you give up when its winter you will miss the promise of your spring
 the beauty of your summer and the fulfillment of your fall

Don't let the pain of one season destroy all the rest; don't judge life by one difficult season.  Persevere through the difficult patches and better times are sure to come.  Aspire to inspire.. .before you expire.
live simply, love generously, care deeply, speak kindly, and leave the rest to God.

Happiness keeps you sweet; trails keeps you strong, sorrow keeps you human,
failure keeps you humble, success keeps you growing but only God keeps you going
(bj morbitzer)

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Day 8!!!

When you do nothing, you feel overwhelmed and powerless. But when you get involved, you feel the sense of hope and accomplishment that comes from knowing you are working to make things better.

      What are YOU doing to make things better? That was the question I had to ask myself as I have felt extremely overwhelmed lately! I have not been doing things to accomplish goals that I've set for myself, and I have been lacking in "prioritizing"; so by the end of the day I am not feeling as productive as I should be!
     With this said, I've decided to start jogging again.  I do not like the way I feel and I can change that! It was a long, challenging road before and I am ready to embrace that again.  With one step at a time I will be doing something to feel a sense of accomplishment.  A goal is met when we reach it ONE STEP AT A TIME!!!!

Sunday, January 22, 2012

DAY 6!!!

              CHURCH, FOOTBALL GAMES, RELAXATION, AND GRAND PRIX!!!!

Church: Will you be like Joseph or his 11 brothers? His 11 brothers held on to the past; regretted the things they were not proud of; let the pain of quilt and shame have a strong hold on them, and couldn't accept forgiveness.  Meanwhile, Joseph did not allow his circumstances to control his life.   No matter what they were he  bore fruit.  When he was betrayed he bore fruit, when he was falsely accused he bore fruit, when he was thrown in prison he bore fruit and while he ruled over the kingdom he bore fruit..
 Genesis 49:22 " Joseph is a fruitful vine, a fruitful vine near a spring, whose branches climb over a wall"
We are all going through "stuff", marriage problems, medical problems, financial problems, and/or emotional problems.  We can allow these situations to control our lives or we can bear fruit in all situations, allowing God to reign over our hardships utilizing the opportunity to overcome and show others how bountiful God really is!
John 15:4 " Remain in me, and I will remain in you.  No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine.  Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me"
Football Game/Relaxation: Sitting on the couch with the family watching football! Need I say any MORE??
Grand Prix: Lyvvie will be participating in the "Grand Prix" today @ church through Awana. Everyone who participates will race cars of which they had to "make" by giving them a block of wood.  Mike and her worked very hard on her car...We are waiting with anticipation to see how her first race will go! Good Luck Lyvvie!!!

Saturday, January 21, 2012

Day 5!!

                                                         Updates in OUR Lives:
     We are still in the stage of this long extensive line of work that will need to be done on Owen's teeth!!
Currently, we visited the orthodontist to see if he could make room for two permanent teeth to be made... He does not have enough room since before the accident he had a severe under bite.  We are waiting for approval from the insurance for his THREE root canals, and now the braces!
    I have currently working on Programming for the Winter Retreat @ Camp Rivercrest.  I am working alongside of the two directors for directions.  I am excited and nervous all at the same time as this is my first program (for camp) We have so many fun activities planned. I just pray everything goes well, and it all brings God's name glory! Please pray for our strength and endurance for the weekend; as it will be a long weekend!!
    Our Valentine's Party planning is underway as well! I love planning Parties, but forgot how time consuming they are to do... I am still working on developing time management, and setting priorities; I often times get swept under with the emotion of being overwhelmed.  We are having a 50's SOCK HOP.  The kids and I have been working on paper macheing "music notes" and making pinatas for decorating.  The girls and the Mothers will be meeting @ our house next week to make "poodle Skirts" The Party should be a Blast!!
   Mike's EMT classes are going well! There is so much information to cover, he often comes home mentally drained. This is only for a season.  I pray that he will be able to pass the National Registry so this will have all been worth it
   Kirk's one art class got overbooked.  Because we were going to go on a day that wasn't inconvenient for us we opted out until April! I think it should be a good think as we are still anticipating the "winter" here in Nebraska! The hour long drive would have been horrible.
    Lyvvie is enrolled in a bible quiz for Feb. 4th.  through the Awana program. And her Grand Prix race is this Sunday! She worked very hard on her car, we are very proud of her!
   Our whole family is working on the Memory Verse that I will leave to you; it is a great promise and is very rewarding to know that we have a gracious God who knows all about us!!
              Psalm 139
1 You have searched me, LORD,
   and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
   you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
   you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
   you, LORD, know it completely.
5 You hem me in behind and before,
   and you lay your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
   too lofty for me to attain.
 7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
   Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
   if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
   if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
   your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
   and the light become night around me,”
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
   the night will shine like the day,
   for darkness is as light to you.
 13 For you created my inmost being;
   you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
   your works are wonderful,
   I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
   when I was made in the secret place,
   when I was woven together in the depths of the earth

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Day 4!!!

      I was talking to my sister yesterday and she opened my eyes to the fact, we use "social networking" as a way to PROVE we have friends!!! My son, Kirk, had 630 friends on his facebook and I... Well I had 459 Friends!!! What?? REALLY? In the words of Mike "Do you honestly go hang with every one of those friends on a Friday night? Yeah! So last night, and this morning we have deleted many, many acquaintances because we no longer feel the importance of having to have a HIGH number on our friends LIST!!!


      A Friend Most True© Wendy Hinson 04.03.99
I need to know if you’re my true friend,
will you be by my side until the end?
Can I tell you my secrets deep,
and trust them in your heart you’ll keep?
We are neither of us without our flaws,
can you accept mine as I will yours?
I’ll be a shoulder to cry on when you’re blue,
will you be there for me when I need you?
No matter how busy I will make time for you,
if you are busy will you make time for me too?
I will take your hand and comfort your tears,
will you hold me and soothe my fears?
I will give you joy and many warm smiles,
can we share that even across many miles?
I will not forget what’s important to you,
will you remember what’s important to me too?
With you my most favourite things I’ll share,
If only I know do you truly care?
If you can accept me as I do you,
then I will know you are a friend most true.



Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Day 3!!

Well After today I should be living in the present with my POST'S!!!!
This is what I get for not updating on a regular basis......
In the last few weeks we have learned the following:
 
1)  We can survive the holidays no matter where you are, who you're not around, or what circumstances that you are in....

2)  No matter where you are; friendships make it better....

3) Bible Study, Bunco, Euchre, and Homeschooling seem to be my 4 favorite words.....

4) Simplicity=Stress Free

5) A family of 5 can really function with ONE (very loud) vehicle

6) Having dinner @ other peoples' house is a WHOLE lot better than cooking YOURSELF...
Thank You to those of you who have opened your homes for this occasion!!!

 7) Lastly, being in the arms of a heavenly father that gives his protection, comfort, peace and healing during difficult times= humbling!!!!! 

                                     By Susan L. Lenzkes
                                   SAYING GOODBYE

     "One of the most heartrending moments of life comes when close friends say good-bye, knowing that many mile swill separate them from their countless shared experiences.  Distance takes on the menacing look of an enemy when it dares to stand between such friends!
     Soon they will find themselves protective shields around the ache of separation.  They will feel themselves both courting and resisting the urge to clip those threads that bind their hearts in love. 
But discovery lies ahead. Real friendship is resilient. The very cords that make it strong-commitment, creativity, caring and sharing-are elastic, and friends can remain committed and even more creative in their long-distance sharing.
     Now cards and letters-stack able memories to be relived over a cup of coffee-will communicate love in indelible ink.  Now calls-where the value of every word, enhanced by the coming bill-will set precious priorities and release sentiment from the soul.  Anticipated visits will be far richer for their infrequency.  Thoughts and feelings long save and protected will be unlocked and shared.
     Best of all, a discovery will be made that hearts in harmony can just as easily carry a tune long-distance"

Here's to FINALLY closing a CHAPTER in my LIFE in OHIO! I will cherish every bit of the past, and fully engage in the future...... TO SILVER and GOLD!!!!!

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Day 2!!

       Mike and I had an enjoyable Christmas with the kids... Although we were away from our family; we truly felt deep appreciation, as we shared in the JOY that we each brought to one other!!! Here is a picture into our Christmas Morning of 2011!!!!!
















30 Day Challenge... Day 1

I am going to try and blog every day for the next 30 days!!!!


 AS the winter months are settling in; we have taken advantage of the slow time.  A few mothers and their daughters have gotten together so we can all learn how to quilt!





Kirk and some friends

The Ice Arena had a FREE skate during the Christmas Break... Lyv and some friends hangin' out!




We had weather in the upper 70's two weeks ago... we were taking advantage and having gym class outside!!!!!

Doing the Plank... They both won, so dont ask!
                                                                                                

     

Saturday, January 7, 2012

A Glimpse of the Past Part III

How can we have thankful, contented hearts when the circumstances in our lives are not what we had planned and when they lie outside our control or our power to change? 1 Thess. Be joyful always: pray continually: give thanks in all circumstances for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. I have to admit there were several times I wasn’t thankful for my situations in fact, when I wasn’t allowing God to work in his timing I wasn’t trusting that God was going to provide and that he wasn’t going to work my situation out for the good.  He is intimately involved with us; he works out his purpose through the events in our lives so that we may be conformed to the image of his son.  I was lonely inside my marriage my heart was aching but when I was willing to reach out to God and his reassuring words he faithfully held me up. The Song That’s What Faith Can Do by Kutless gave me some inspiration:  "I’ve seen dreams move the mountains hope that never ends even when the sky is falling I’ve seen miracles just happened silent prayers get answered broken hearts become brand new that’s what faith can do!!!" 
     Our marriage was going through troubled difficulties, we were self-destructing I was in defense mode, we fought most the time, we attacked one another with our words.   I was confused, embarrassed, and ashamed and felt guilty…   I had a broken heart…. I learned quickly to wear a mask, I learned how to manipulate everyone around me, and convinced everyone that we had a great thing. I was busy trying to control and fix the problem, because I was impatiently waiting for God to do something.  We both desperately wanted to make it work, and would constantly try and find temporary quick fixes.   We were living a marriage of unevenly yoked and it felt like an uphill battle, of which I was exhausted.  I began to push our communication and relationship aside because it was too difficult. And it was easy to do with three children,:with sports, school, recreation, and activities etc.etc. We filled our days, weeks, months with busyness, it wasn’t always bad, that was the confusing part, however we were burying our feelings and it was like a landmine when they would explode.. I was running; but who I was running from was God’s help, God’s grace and mercy, his forgiveness. I have always loved God but have had a hard time accepting his will for me and his control. Another thing I’ve struggled with is Finances, which in return would cause a lot of fighting, Mike and I had agreed to take the FPU class being offered  at our church by Dave Ramsey. That was the start of our turning point. It gave us peace for a time, we started to connect and it started to feel right, we were finally going in the right direction.  However, when the program was over  our fears became reality, as we no longer had the accountability, and summer came and life grabbed a hold of us.  We quickly were swept right back into our old habits and clung to the only thing we knew, or lack of what we knew… Another set back, another failure, I was emotionally drained.  I had decided I was going to quit… The kids and I had a chance to go out of town, and we jumped on the opportunity because Mike and I had decided to separate but was trying to find the right time.  Deep down neither of us wanted to but it was literally the only thing we hadn’t tried and I was done fighting. We were gone for 4 ½ days and honestly it was so easy. I had to come home and face reality that somehow our marriage had spun out of control, and I was loosing the battle quickly, I was deeply sadden that our 13 years marriage was going nowhere and I had to carry the burden that I no longer wanted to try.  Mike and I had been through a lot: high school sweethearts, teen parents, loss of family members, bad back, emotional setbacks, failures among the many and was constantly reminded of how wrong things how’d gone, I had just wished God would intervene. That summer was one of loneliest summers for me; I wore my mask proudly, wept nightly and wished daily that something would change… To make things worse I tore my disc in my back and was in an excruciating pain.  I remember the 180 band playing this song “I’ll praise you in the storm” I was sure by now God you would have reached down and whipped my tears away stepped in and saved the day but once again I’ll say Amen. As your mercy falls I’ll raise my hands and praise the God who gives and takes away. I’ll praise you in the storm I’ll lift my hands for you are who your are no matter where I am every tear I cry you hold in your hand you never left my side and though my heart is torn I’ll praise you in this storm..
      A traumatic ordeal Mike and I had to go through years ago someone once told me If God brings you to the storm he will bring you out of the storm and I had to hold on to that promise that once again God was going to be there for me.. Mike and I barely made it through the summer, and as we were planning on going away for our 13th year anniversary a good friend came over to talk with me, she gave me two books, one called “Love & Respect” by Dr Emerson Eggerichs and the Love Dare, and the DVD “Fireproof” What I realized is he desperately wanted respect I desired to be loved. It was an endless cycle, no matter how hard we tried our lack of knowledge of how to treat one another was tearing us apart.  I didn’t know that I was disrespecting Mike by my actions, which in return he wasn’t showing me love.  I learned that submission to and love for him was an outgrowth of spiritual development and a close relationship with the Lord, You see God needed to work in me to prepare me for the blessing he was about to give. It was his timing and not mine, it was Gods will and not mine… God needed to change my conduct and give me a gentle and quiet spirit, (1 peter 3:1-3 wives, in the same way be submissive to your husbands to so that, if any of them do not believe the word, they may be won over without words by the behavior of theirs wives, when they see the purity and reverence of your lives your beauty should not come from outward adornments, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight)  I was constantly being reminded Do not pay back evil for evil, or insult with insult, be self-controlled, prepare  your minds for action be self controlled. I was dependent on Mike instead of God, and God was showing me that Mike only knew to love so much because he didn’t have Christ in his heart.  I was to look to God and not toward men because he wasn’t providing me what I felt I rightfully deserved. I had to lay all my expectations at the cross and release him from the burden of fulfilling me in areas where only God could fulfill. That weekend ended up being an emotional break through. Mike and I self counseled the whole weekend, read the books together, watched the movie. We had peace about where we were going, but once again I was puzzled as to why he still wouldn’t give his heart to the Lord. He did agree to do the love dare challenge, and in my heart I agreed to faithfully pray for him… The Power Team came to our church in October. They had such a great impact on our family, you could feel the holy spirit moving in ways that was unexplainable, and on that Wednesday our whole family went to the altar during the altar call, except MIKE.. I was excited for my children, but once again I was up against a spiritual battle.  I was doing everything I was supposed to. I was praying  for God to change me, to make be a witness- I left there feeling like Satan had stole my victory  "The thief will come to steal, kill and destroy"  That night I threw a temper tantrum and cried out to God in frustrations I shouted  “I’m done!!!"  I didn’t know how to pray for him, I was tired of trying, and feeling guilty.. I asked God to forgive me for not trusting him, I fell to my knees and wept..  In that dark, quiet place I remember hearing God say "Ask Me and you shall receive, seek ME and you will find knock and I will open the door"  I had to lay down all claims to power in myself and rely on God’s transforming power, in that moment God restored my thoughts, I was a wife longing for something, that God had been saying WAIT FOR ME all of this time, and I felt like I needed to brace myself because something was about to change, I just had to be patient to persevere and wait for God.
     The power team was there all week, and on that Saturday on Oct. 17th Mike gave his life to the Lord!  We have been given the privilege to have the peace of God in our marriage and in our home, we have the access to  his presence upon our lives, we have peace with God.. Instead of being hostile, angry bitter towards one another we have joy. Romans and we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. God keeps pouring his love into our hearts for one another, for our family and for those around us, our thoughts have been transformed our marriage has peace, our two hearts our finally one. I couldn’t ever have imagine the true love that only God could place in our hearts for each other, full of unity, built with strength, grace, mercy forgiveness and LOVE!  We will continue to have trails and tribulations, we will sin every day, but we are prepared to be receptive for what God has in store for us, and be ready to be obedient servants. God says Do not fear I’m with you, Do not worry I have it under control Do not run and grow weary!!   We know that God has many blessings he will pour out.  The path we’re taking is definitely unknown, God is opening doors for our marriage, but instead of running away from God we will sit and WAIT on God. Whatever you’re waiting for from GOD,  is WORTH the wait!!!!

Friday, January 6, 2012

A Glimpse of the Past Part II

Mike's Testimony

     As a youngster I grew up in a permissive household. My father was an alcoholic, abused my mother and my mother was his enabler.  For most of my childhood my mother worked in bars as a barmaid. AT age 12 my mother finally decided to divorce my father and the reign of terror was over!  I however, was left with the responsibility of being the “man” of the house.  I was the oldest of 4 siblings, Because of the lack of a father in my live.  I found myself hanging in the bar where my mom worked.  For myself there were many “knowledgeable” father figures to get advice from.  I also found my mother enabling my weakness and “family disease” of alcoholism.  I would go to that bar, take a friend or two, and we would drink. By eighth grade I had found “romance” and the first and only love of my life.  I was attending a local church/arcade/ youth group designed to reach out to troubled youth, like myself; I met a girl there (that by the grace of God today I call my wife.)  She came from a broken home as well as I did and there was an instant respect and understanding for one another.  Obviously, because of both of out backgrounds with abandonment, and various family issues, we became sexually active by age 15.
      My senior year of high school, I being 17 and her being a junior 16, we found ourselves expecting our first of what would later be 3 children. It was a scary time for us. Her mother was not very understanding and this was an atomic bomb we were about to drop in the Smith household.   To add to our insecurities, I was to leave for the Army right after graduation.  Fortunately neither one of us believed in abortion so we had our little boy. My girlfriend still had a year of school left at this point and all I did was work, go spend time with my son and sleep.  My son lived with his mother and grandmother.  This arrangement was taking a toll on us so we found an apartment, moved in together and six months later started our lives together as a husband and wife.
      The early years were the best and simplest years of our life.  I remember one of the greatest joys we had as a new couple was picking out an apple battery powered clock, apple pot holders, and apple towels for our kitchen in our 2 bedroom upstairs apartment!  Unfortunately, when you are running from God and have inner demons (alcohol) the happiness does not last!  We ended up with 3 children, I had a good job as a union carpenter had bought a ranch style house that I loved working on, and bought a new mini van, we had the American dream!
      Tragedy struck our lives in a huge way and sent us into a tailspin that we have only recently recovered from.  As a result we had to put a man in jail for 6 years.  This turned our world upside down, and sent everything spiraling out of control.  Our finances were already in decline. This ended up being the final straw.  We ended up bankrupt, lost everything and spiritually and emotionally hallow.
      My wife had been a believer all of her life, but because of my state, she fell with me and we all crashed hard.  WE spent the next few years in a new school district, a rented house, attending church at times because it was the “right” thing to do. Our church life was even unsteady as we changed churches twice in a search for God.  On October 2009 that all changed, we attended a Power Team event. They were to be there for the entire week and of course my two teenage boys wanted to watch stuff get pulverized!  We went to the shows as a family 3 out of the 6 nights they were there!  To me it was fascinating to watch those animals tearing stuff up, especially in the name of our savior Jesus Christ!  This was not the acts of normal men, most men don’t cry, don’t share their feelings, and especially show no weakness or mercy!  (so I thought!) The first two nights I was resistant to the calling of Jesus to my life, but by the 3rd day I was in complete surrender and submission to him.
      Since that Oct. night 2009 there has been a great stirring in my heart to use all my gifts and talents for God; and my family and I have come to agree that we want to serve as a family in camp ministry!  That is our desire and mission as long as we’re on this earth. I want to serve God; to be his hands and feet , and  love Him with all my heart, soul and mind!!! Amen!


Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Live Well, Laugh Much, & Love Often!!!!

                                                             
                                         A smile starts on the lips, A grin spreads to the eyes,
                          A chuckle comes from the belly; But a good laugh bursts forth from the soul,
                                                   Overflows, and bubbles all around
                                                          - Carolyn Birmingham


     Today was our First day back to School... The day started rough, but God quickly reminded me how friendships and laughter are good for the soul. It is important to rearrange time out of our busy lives to spend with others that are uplifting and encouraging!  In doing so, it not only brings healing to the soul but it creates bonds that are everlasting.
      My life used to be filled with busyness so much that I missed opportunities to connect.  I used to think, the more busy and involved I was the better I could be. I have been a stay at home mom, therefore no college degrees or social ladders to climb.  I felt like I had nothing to offer "the social world", no achievements to brag amount, no successes to share.  A people pleaser, that I had become, would not give in to the fact that my priorities were all wrong.  I could not say NO, as that would disappoint and bring conflict. With out asking my husband, family or even God if it was his will for my life for that matter, I would submerge myself into the next task prior to another commitment being finished.  This only brought stress, anxiety and disrespect to my family.
      Yes, I am good at a lot of things, and Yes, I enjoy many of the things that I did, however the time and energy I was spending on others to please them, is the energy I needed to refocus towards God and his desires for me! After all I made a commitment to Him to follow him and serve HIM! (NOT PEOPLE) And when God calls us to follow him, he neither drags us nor pushes us.  Rather the Lord walks ahead of us, planting footsteps in the sand so we'll never lose sight of him. (Liz Curtis Higgs) When our attention and focus is on God; he will give us the desires of our hearts.  The desire of my heart:
1) Is for people to see Jesus in me
2) To have a willingness and a desire to follow him
3) To have my priorities right, and to focus my attention on where it needs to belong
2) To have a Strong, Christ centered marriage
3) To have a healthy, happy family who loves God, themselves and each other
5) A family who has great values and morals
6) For Godly friendships that produces Laugther in the Best of Times

 Live Well, Laugh Much, and Love Often!!!!!



Monday, January 2, 2012

Family Pics!!


We had our family pictures taken for my Birthday!!! These are just "teasers" but thought I would share them with you!!!! Thank YOU SO much Bailey for Putting up with our family for 2 1/2 hours!!!!!







Welcoming 2012!!!!!!

     I can not believe another year as passed! I remember starting last year, as I had just recovered from surgery. Three Months of suffering through agonizing pain to find out it was my gall bladder! With that behind me, we had different challenges to face.  Mike and I were feeling strongly about going into ministry, however it was so big we didn't know what it should look like! We began to pray and seek Godly wisdom.  Our prayer was for open doors, a willingness to be obedient, and spiritual discernment to know what God's WILL was for our lives. We were so uncertain at times, especially the closer it got to getting out of the boat WITH faith and walking on water IN faith.  The year 2011 called us away from our friends, family and what we called home.  It called us away from our possessions, our relationships and our comfort.  But most importantly it was an answer to our prayers; as God is using us to be a channel for him, to bring his name glory in all that we do, and is giving us an opportunity to learn and gain as much knowledge as we need to walk in a ministry that he is calling us to do! As I sit and ponder back at 2011 it was a season of waiting, a season of trusting, and a season of leaving.  I know full well that this new year is a season of learning for us.  We embrace the change, accept the challenge and Welcome the NEW YEAR 2012!!!!!!