Thursday, May 31, 2012

They're here!!!

     Kids made it home safely; now we are whole again!!!!  Love that Ryan is here for the weekend we are having so much fun... Lyv is broken hearted again though as she has come to the realization that this will be the last visit for quite some time.....

I thought I would share a few pictures.... Please enjoy!!




Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Our family will be reunited!!!

Well after 10 days of being away from the children, they finally are coming home! I can't believe how quickly the time really went.  I was overcome with discouragement all day today as I realized there was a lot of things that I didn't accomplish.  I found no time to rest, which was crucial prior to the start of summer camp! As I worked alone in the snack shack I found rest in the presence of God, which I needed badly...I am so glad our family will be reunited, however not all family members feel this way..
Sadly I must confess that my son and I's relationship has slowly grown apart.. This brings tears to my eyes as I type this now. I am broken about it but have tried to justify or minimize what truly is going on.  I know he is a teenager but he still carries a lot of resentment from being "uprooted" I really thought his visit back to Ohio would help; but I'm not too sure of that now! I need your prayers.. Please pray specifically that he will open up and be willing to share his feelings.  Pray that he will find refuge in Gods arms.  He struggles with transition and adjustments even if it is better for him, he gets "stuck" in a place and shuts his heart off to possibilities and opportunities.  I pray that Gods hand will be upon him and his heart will be soften and our relationship will heal. Pray that I will respect and validate his feelings. Help me to have an understanding of what he is going through pray for wisdom so I know the right words to say and pray for my actions..

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Where I belong?

       After my recent trip home I was overcome with emotions as to where I should 'call home'???
I was born and raised in Ohio; however we have made a new home in a new state.  While driving to camp this morning this song came on the radio... I have heard it before, but OH how fitting it was for me this time around while struggling with the question.  It doesn't matter where we reside, this is only a temporary home!

Building 429
"Where I belong"

Sometimes it feels like I'm watching from the outside
Sometimes it feels like I'm breathing but am I alive
I won't keep searching for answers that aren't here to find

All I know is I'm not home yet
This is not where I belong
Take this world and give me Jesus
This is not where I belong

So when the walls come falling down on me
And when I'm lost in the current of a raging sea
I have this blessed assurance holding me.

All I know is I'm not home yet
This is not where I belong
Take this world and give me Jesus
This is not where I belong

When the earth shakes I wanna be found in You
When the lights fade I wanna be found in You

All I know is I'm not home yet
This is not where I belong
Take this world and give me Jesus
This is not where I belong

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Strolling down memory lane!!

      The time has quickly gone by! I can't believe 10 months have gone by since our family departed from Ohio to start a new journey.   Our journey has had many twists and turns, ups and downs, good times, bad times, sad times and happy times...I remind myself all the time...

 "that my thoughts are not God's thoughts my ways are not his ways" Isaiah 55:8-9

I look back on these last 10 months and recap some of the highlights of this adventure:

1) established a home in Nebraska
2) accomplished many goals and continue to do so
3) developed long lasting friendships
4) grown in our spiritual walk with the Lord

I also look back and recollect some of the moments in time that lead us to many different emotions

1) We received our first financial support from anonymous donor of $1.11 (truly humbled me and touched my heart)
2) Our needs were provided for
3) I had come to terms with the fact that for many years I planted a harvest of busyness and you reap what you sow.  I acknowledged the behavior and decided to rearrange my priorities
4) Our vehicle broke down (again, again, again and yet again) (haha)
5) We were blessed with the opportunity to go to an outdoor festival called Lifelight..
6) Met a wonderful organization called AMEN, that truly puts the missional living behind the faith that Christ talks about in his word
7) My sister and Ryan surprised us with a visit
8) We learned different traditions for the holidays as we celebrated them alone
9) I began to home school
10) joined a co-op
11) attended a 10 week marriage training to counsel couples
12) was blessed to have dental care, & eye care
13) was utilized in many different occasions to be a channel for God
14) herniated a disc in my back
15) put on TONS of weight
16) have been completely and utterly thankful for the many, many blessings that have been showered upon our family
16) have had a couple "rounds" of depression (my silent struggle)
17) Spent many hours at camp
18) Started several social groups
l9) Finished my first year of homeschooling!!!!!!
20) Coming HOME FOR A VISIT!!!!

    Our family will get the privilege of  traveling back to Ohio for a visit!! We are looking forward to seeing as many people as we can!! I guess this is why I started thinking back over our journey.  As I was packing tonight I did the calculation in my head as to how long we've been gone, which made me ponder on the last 10 months to send me down memory lane!

"Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us" Ephesians 3:20

As you can see I couldn't possibly list all the things that has happened ( I guess you should re read all my posts if you want to know more than whats on the list... haha) the last 10 months. But I will say this.................

We serve an awesome God! I am truly thankful for this journey we are on. I am truly thankful that in this journey we have been given time to go visit our loved ones..I am truly excited for the wild and wonderful experience that we will experience here at camp this summer after our visit, and can not see all the amazing things that God has in store for US!!!