Thursday, November 29, 2012



Okay I jumped of the thankfulness bandwagon at day 16.... Instead of playing catch up I've decided to write an update on how I am getting through this moment in my life currently called PAIN!!

During the night I wake up in the middle of the night and cry out; the pain overtakes me
It is agonizing, excruciating and controlling
I grip the side of the mattress, grit my teeth and moan out just to turn my body
During the morning I wait for help, oh how we take for granted jumping out of bed in the morning....My help, whether my husband or son, pulls on me to get me from a laying position, gradually to a sitting position, and then finally to a standing position.. The tears stream down my cheek is it so humiliating especially when my son has to pull me up.. I turn my head I don't want them to see the tears. The pain isn't over yet as I have no feeling in my leg, or no control of it..If I can just get the first step under control I will then be okay to walk
During the day I face many challenges as well.. I position myself to on the couch, it doesn't bring great relief but as long as I don't move I have some relief
During the day I try and focus on school work, the kids, the house, the responsibility of a mother.. but to no prevail my focus is gone
During the pain I wonder how can I be an example, how can I show the Love of God through me.....

As of last night I wasn't doing so well, as much as I have prayed to not slip into the pit of "SELF"... it was inevitable.

The last couple of days I have come to the realization that even though I'm sitting, I was still very distracted. I could be utilizing this time more wisely..  grading papers, studying the Bible, finishing my bible study etc.etc.  I just wanted to veg.. I can't keep my focus on anything so I would rather sit and do nothing. Problem with doing nothing is in the quite we can do one of two things: We can isolate ourselves which leads to depression and discouragement (the root of self pity) or we can put into practice the things we know.  Okay so let me elaborate on both options

1) Isolating ourselves:  This is a huge problem.. It makes a situation seem so much bigger then what we can handle.  As we begin to stop doing the things that we successfully do on a daily basis it creates the urgency of feeling overwhelmed.. Once I feel overwhelmed I begin to feel defeated.  Once I feel defeated I stop believing in myself and believe the lies that are being told to me and come to except them...

"But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me." 2 Corinthians 12:9

"No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us." Romans 8:37

2) Practicing what we know: I actually was reading about being content the other day..  I was reading how Paul was content in all circumstances: he was beaten, falsely accused, thrown in prison, (where he spent a great deal of time there) forgotten, and shipwrecked. Through all of this he still kept his focus on God, boldly preached in his Name and asked for His strength.
It's not about our times of weakness but on Gods strength.  See the things we go through isn't about US at all; its about bringing God's name glory in ALL situations.
Two nights ago I laid in bed as thoughts crossed my mind... What was I missing in this lesson? What or why am I not learning from this situation?  Why in my brokenness did I not hear God's voice? And why am I so distracted instead of being content?  I rustled with these thoughts as I fell asleep (the pain medicine works well in that department)
The next day I slept almost the entire day as the medicine was still working.....
Feeling  Frustrated I think that my ONLY choice is either suffer through the pain, or take medicine and sleep the entire time.. I've wasted so much precious time sleeping on these pills!!! 

"Why can't I be more like Paul???" I asked my husband yesterday

My husband and I were sitting in the quite of our living room... The kids were off to youth group.  I was in amazement of what the children had done for me. They had spent all afternoon pulling out my Christmas decorations and decorating the house, moving furniture around and cleaning up their mess as well!!
The kids have done such a great job... although this hasn't been their first rodeo.. they have picked up the pieces and tried to carry my load to the best of their ability!!
As my husband and I carried on our conversation, tears of sadness filled my eyes.... I want to take care of my husband,  I want to take care of my kids, my home, their school... I want so desperately to be an example but I have nothing left to give, I myself, don't understand exactly what is going on... I feel so broken, so worn down.. the pain steels the joy.. the pain eats at you.. it exhausts you....
Then a knock at the door... Friends of ours stop by for a quick cup of coffee and to bring us a slice of pie... after their company...
Another knock at the door.... Another friend I haven't seen in a while, she has brought encouragement..
 "The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." Psalm 34:18
Then in the quite when everyone leaves.... the PEACE hits me... again the tears, but this time... and overwhelming JOY knowing that when I asked God to speak to me... not only did he do it; he did it in a BIG way!!!!  He knows I am broken, he knows I am worn, and he also knows what it is like to be in pain... I can't wrap my mind around the pain he endured for ME.... and while not guilty, he went through the most unbearable pain... As he was going through the pain he was not thinking of himself he was thinking of Me, and he was thinking of You!!!!

"He himself bore our sins in his body on the tree, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; by his wounds you have been healed." 1 Peter 2:24

Monday, November 19, 2012

Day 16 of Thankfulness!!!!

I am so Thankful for FRIENDS!!!! I have been truly blessed by some wonderful people who know what unconditional love is... I have experienced support through talking, laughing, crying, playing and through praying with one another!!
Just when I was down and praying for God to show his love and mercy... He NEVER fails.. He poured out his goodness through people who would stop what they were doing and act selfless to shower me with blessings... When you experience this kind of love, you know its from above!!!
Tonight I am very thankful for my FRIENDS!!!!

Proverbs 11:14 Where there is no guidance, a people falls, but in an abundance of counselors there is safety.


Sunday, November 18, 2012

Day 15 of Thanksgiving!!!


This day is a different kind of thanks... It comes with affliction and tears.. Although I know God is still in control I fight it with all my might!

I am in agonizing pain. I want to be joyful but I find myself wallowing in self pity. I want my focus to be on the Lord but I can't help but wonder what, why and how????

I hate the pain... I hate the feeling guilty.... but mostly I hate not having my focus on the Lord...

I have nothing to offer in this blog today other than my open heart.....

God, I trust you and If I must go through this pain I pray for grace to show me how to get through it. 
I love being a blessing for others and I hate that I am in a state to where I can't give right now. Lord show me how I can focus on you through this excruciating pain. I know you have a purpose that I am unaware of.. .But your thoughts and ways are not my thoughts and ways... I am overwhelmed with fear and anxiety as our reliance of insurance is no more... I struggle with my own lack of discipline...
however my hope and trust is in you...... I know that you are with me.... For all of this I am THANKFUL for a loving, merciful God, that even when I feel not worthy of his grace; he gives it abundantly!!!!!

Romans 5:3-5
"And we[b] boast in the hope of the glory of God. 3 Not only so, but we[c] also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4 perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5 And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us"

1 Peter 4:12-16

The Message (MSG)
12-13 Friends, when life gets really difficult, don’t jump to the conclusion that God isn’t on the job. Instead, be glad that you are in the very thick of what Christ experienced. This is a spiritual refining process, with glory just around the corner.

Friday, November 16, 2012

Day 14 of Thankfulness!!!

It is truly a treasure to be able to WORSHIP our heavenly father!! I get such peace when I am able to enter into his presence.  Worship... an overflow of gratitude to the LORD....
I am so Thankful that we have the freedom to worship.. I love worship music!!! I can not express it enough... it changes my emotional state when I'm feeling, sad, depressed, overwhelmed... I run to it, I seek it and I need it!!! I think the best way to worship is through song. My FAVORITE worship leader is Kari Jobe... She is so talented and blessed with a powerful voice... I thank God for people who can express their voice in the way to sing encouraging words through song..   We get to experience that ever loving peace when our hearts our open.   And for that I am THaNKFUL for WORSHIP!! 

Our Everyday Acts Of Worship

Everything we do
Is an act of worship
That brings pleasure and delight
When it’s done for God,
It touches His heart
And is our God-given purpose in life

For God created
Everything that exists
For His glory and His pleasure
And we, His children,
Have so much worth
More valuable than priceless treasure

For worshipping God
Is truly a lifestyle,
Affecting everything we do
It’s not just in singing
Spiritual songs,
But in our everyday happenings too

As we minister to those
We see in need
Offering to them our service
And even the mundane
Everyday things,
To God, they’re acts of worship

We need to be offering
As a dedication
Every area of our lives
As an act of spiritual
Worship to God
And a most holy sacrifice

For God cares so much
About every detail
No matter how great or small
For God will walk
In our every day life
As we establish Him as Lord.

© By M.S.Lowndes

 "At the Foot of the Cross"
At the foot of the cross
Where grace and suffering meet
You have shown me Your love
Through the judgment You received

And You've won my heart
Yes You've won my heart
Now I can

Trade these ashes in for beauty
And wear forgiveness like a crown
Coming to kiss the feet of mercy
I lay every burden down
At the foot of the cross

At the foot of the cross
Where I am made complete
You have given me life
Through the death You bore for me

And you've won my heart
Yes you've won my heart
Now I can

Trade the ashes in for beauty
And wear forgiveness like a crown
Coming to kiss the feet of mercy
I lay every burden down
At the foot of the cross

Trade these ashes in for beauty
And wear forgiveness like a crown
Coming to kiss the feet of mercy
I lay every burden down
At the foot of the cross

And you've won my heart
Yes you've won my heart
Now I can

Trade these ashes in for beauty
And wear forgiveness like a crown
Coming to kiss the feet of mercy
I lay every burden down
At the foot of the cross

I'd trade these ashes in for beauty
And wear forgiveness like a crown
Coming to kiss the feet of mercy

I lay every burden down
I lay every burden down
I lay every burden down
At the foot of the cross

I'm laying every burden down
I'm laying every burden down

"You steady my Heart"
Wish it could be easy
Why is life so messy
Why is pain a part of us

There are days I feel like
Nothing ever goes right
Sometimes it just hurts so much

But You're here, You're real
I know I can trust You

Even when it hurts, even when it's hard
Even when it all just falls apart
I will run to You 'cause I know that You are
Lover of my soul, Healer of my scars

You steady my heart
You steady my heart

I'm not gonna worry
I know that You've got me
Right inside the palm of your hand

Each and every moment
What's good and what gets broken
Happens just the way You plan

You are here, You're real
I know I can trust You

Even when it hurts, even when it's hard
Even when it all just falls apart
I will run to You 'cause I know that You are
Lover of my soul, Healer of my scars

You steady my heart
You steady my heart

And I will run to You
I'll find refuge in Your arms
And I will sing to You
Cause of everything You are

You steady my heart
You steady my heart

Even when it hurts, even when it's hard
Even when it all just falls apart
I will run to You 'cause I know that You are
Lover of my soul, Healer of my scars

You steady my heart
You steady my heart

I'm not gonna worry
I know that You've got me
Right inside the palm of Your hand

A call to True Worship

Psalms 8:1 O LORD, our Lord, how majestic is your name in all the earth! You have set your glory above the heavens.
Psalms 29:2 Ascribe to the LORD the glory due his name; worship the LORD in the splendor of holiness.
Psalms 95:6 Oh come, let us worship and bow down; let us kneel before the LORD, our Maker!
Psalms 99:5 Exalt the LORD our God; worship at his footstool! Holy is he!
John 4:21-24 Jesus said to her, “Woman, believe me, the hour is coming when neither on this mountain nor in Jerusalem will you worship the Father. You worship what you do not know; we worship what we know, for salvation is from the Jews. But the hour is coming, and is now here, when the true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and truth, for the Father is seeking such people to worship him. God is spirit, and those who worship him must worship in spirit and truth.”

Reasons for Worship

Deuteronomy 12:5-7 But you shall seek the place that the LORD your God will choose out of all your tribes to put his name and make his habitation there. There you shall go, and there you shall bring your burnt offerings and your sacrifices, your tithes and the contribution that you present, your vow offerings, your freewill offerings, and the firstborn of your herd and of your flock. And there you shall eat before the LORD your God, and you shall rejoice, you and your households, in all that you undertake, in which the LORD your God has blessed you.
Philippians 2:9-11Therefore God has highly exalted him [Jesus] and bestowed on him the name that is above every name, so that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.
James 4:8 Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you…
Revelation 5:9 And they sang a new song, saying, “Worthy are you to take the scroll and to open its seals, for you were slain, and by your blood you ransomed people for God from every tribe and language and people and nation,
Revelation 4:11“Worthy are you, our Lord and God, to receive glory and honor and power, for you created all things, and by your will they existed and were created.”

Examples of Worship

Exodus 33:9-10 Then Moses entered the tent, the pillar of cloud would descend and stand at the entrance of the tent, and the LORD would speak with Moses. And when all the people saw the pillar of cloud standing at the entrance of the tent, all the people would rise up and worship, each at his tent door.
Psalms 100:4 Enter his gates with thanksgiving, and his courts with praise! Give thanks to him; bless his name!
Romans 12:1-2 I appeal to you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship. Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.
Bible Verses About Worship
I have been crucified with Christ
Galatians 2:20 I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.
Hebrews 5:7 In the days of his flesh, Jesus offered up prayers and supplications, with loud cries and tears, to him who was able to save him from death, and he was heard because of his reverence.

Worship in Song

Exodus 15:20-21 Then Miriam the prophetess, the sister of Aaron, took a tambourine in her hand, and all the women went out after her with tambourines and dancing. And Miriam sang to them: “Sing to the LORD, for he has triumphed gloriously;the horse and his rider he has thrown into the sea.”
Psalms 59:16 But I will sing of your strength; I will sing aloud of your steadfast love in the morning. For you have been to me a fortress and a refuge in the day of my distress.
Psalms 63:3-4 The heavens declare the glory of God, and the sky above proclaims his handiwork.
Psalms 66:4 All the earth worships you and sings praises to you; they sing praises to your name.” Selah
Psalms 150 Praise the LORD! Praise God in his sanctuary; praise him in his mighty heavens! Praise him for his mighty deeds; praise him according to his excellent greatness! Praise him with trumpet sound; praise him with lute and harp! Praise him with tambourine and dance; praise him with strings and pipe! Praise him with sounding cymbals; praise him with loud clashing cymbals! Let everything that has breath praise the LORD! Praise the LORD!


Thursday, November 15, 2012

Day 13 of Thankfulness!!!!

It's the simple things in life that mean the most, and it's the simple things that will make the big things seem bigger.

The other day was my daughter's 12th Birthday.... I was bummed considering we were not able to get her anything BIG for her birthday.  I have always gone over bored with the kids' birthdays but last few years I have really had to scale back.
I explained to her that she would pick out her favorite meal and that I would make a cake and have ice cream.  While we were at the store picking up our ingredients the boys saw that her favorite movie was on sale.  They asked if we could get it for her?
I was thinking in the terms of BIG for her and didn't think we could manage but yet the movie didn't seem so overwhelming...  We hid it with our ingredients so that she could be surprised and off we went.  We had a staff meeting prior to our "celebratory dinner" and the boys had band practice.  Mike had informed me that he had gotten her a card and threw in his spare change that he had in his pocket.  Once all of our commitments were out of the way we sat down and ate dinner together, gave her the card, and surprised her with the movie.  In addition to the card we finally allowed her to have a face book (which she has wanted for TWO years) Oh, she was so excited when her daddy told her she could have face book... We sat together and watched her movie, sang happy birthday to her-she blew out her candles, ate cake and ice cream.  

The evening ended up being so delightful and I realized...

I am Thankful for the SIMPLE things in LIFE!!!!!!    


Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Day 12 of Thankfulness!!!!!

Today I am thankful for my mom.... She actually was my grandmother who raised 8 of her own children.  After she adopted my brother, sister and I she had 11 children.  In addition to 11 children she has 20 grandchildren and 9 great grandchildren (#10 on the way in January)!!!!!!   I'll be honest, our relationship was never the greatest; however she has really made a great effort and made attempts to restore our relationship.  She and I were talking recently... during our conversation she had told me that she really admired and supported what Mike and I was doing.. She wanted to help us because she believed in us; she had always wanted to be a missionary and this was her way of giving back!! If it weren't for my mom, watching Kirk for me,  I would have never graduated high school.. She would wake up in the middle of the night after hearing me rock him hours after hours, knowing I had a test the next day and take him for me.....I really wished I knew then what I know now, I feel things could have been different.  But, they say you learn from your mistakes.  I cried after talking with my mother during this recent conversations because she told me she loved me and was proud of me and thought I was a beautiful person...... I didn't hear those words much, but she also apologized for that as well!!! Oh, I'm sure if she were the one talking, she would have her fair share of the things I did wrong.... She was the better person as she spoke words I so desperately longed to hear. I could not bring myself to say the same thing... I harbored deep, emotional scars of the past, and I have forgiven her.  I wanted to share it with her but I couldn't. I wanted to say THANK YOU for being there for me even when it was difficult to raise me... But I couldn't it... I wanted to say that she was beautiful as well, and I had accepted that she did what she could with the knowledge she had.... But I couldn't..... But I can honestly say, now that I am a mother, I truly know what it means to try the very best you can!! My mom sacrificed in her own way... She always had people over, always gave her plate of food if that meant our guests would get first, knowing that meant that she may have gone without.  She did the best she could and FOR THAT I am thankful for my MOTHER!!!


Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Day 11 of Thankfulness!!!!!!!

I am thankful for a VERY special person in MY LIFE!!!!!!!

I remember when I was small... You used to take care of me!! As we grew you were our "favorite aunt" I loved to stay at your house as you made me feel important and special!! I used to call your work and ask If I could Please speak to "Naunie"
How funny this is now.... to know I called a professional work place and ask for you by your most important name!! (hahahaha)
I remember when you would come over to visit; how I wanted to go with you so I would cling on to your leg.... I remember having and attitude and you "beating my butt" all the way up the stairs.... I remember you helping me when I was sad, happy, or scared...I remember staying at your house the night before my wedding you were so selfless and gave and gave and gave.... It was late into the night and you still had rigatoni to make... I remember you stirring the food and the red sauce fell on your white carpet!! I would like to say I don't remember the choice words you said, but I remember. I remember you standing by my side as Mike and I became ONE. I remember all that you did for us on that special day... I remember you spoiling my kids and becoming their favorite aunt...I remember you helping me when I was sick with strep throat, with such high fever I couldn't get out of bed........ I remember when my world shook and the very bottom of it was pulled from under us.. how you deeply hurt with us and carried our emotional scars as well... I remember when you shared with me the deep desire to have a child...I remember you doing a magic trick on Easter to tell the family you were expecting. I remember you asking me if I would help watch your child... I remember you finding out your child was a boy.... I remember watching you and Steve become parents for the first time... and sharing that joy with you.... I remember watching Ryan and being a close part of his life for his first two years.... I remember him having me wrapped around his little finger... I remember the bond this created..... I no longer could call you my aunt, as you were much closer to me than an aunt.... You were my sister!!! I remember the fun times we have shared.. I remember the sad times.... I remember telling you that we had to move away.... I remember your love for us, it was all you could do... I remember you taking us in and allowing us to stay with you during the transition of moving... I remember the ache and the pain I felt as we drove away.... I remember my love for you as we are now hundreds of miles away... I remember this special person in my life...That person is YOU!!! I love you for who you are, the impact you have had on my life and memories we share...Even though we are miles apart, each and every day you are close to my

Here's to my sister
Remember every day No matter what I've said Here's what I'd like to say I will always love you Be with you till the end When no one else is around I will be your friend I love my sister and I always will I'm proud to be your sister that's how I feel Even though we're far away And the miles keep us apart I'm gonna whisper I love my sister And you'll hear it in your heart

Day 7,8,9,&10 of Thankfulness!!!!!! went to a scrap-booking retreat over the weekend; was unable to blog, however I realized that these days are some of the reasons we should be, and I am, thankful.......                                            

Time: I am thankful for the time that can be spent retreating away from the busy life style and the monotony of every day life.... Even Jesus, himself would retreat and find time for rest and reflection..".After a busy day of ministry in the region of the Sea of Galilee, He retreated. Matthew 14:23 tells us that “when He had sent the multitudes away, He went up on the mountain by Himself to pray. Now when evening came, He was alone there.” Alone in the presence of the Father." It is important to get away and regroup before you make meaningful forward progress.  This is particularly true in our RELATIONSHIP with God.....
Rest: This comes hard for me as I have a difficult time "sitting still, being still... actually doing anything with the word "still" in it!!!  In this fast-paced, world we live in it's easy to wear ourselves down. But in our passion to pursue a relationship with Christ and to be an effective servant for him, we must take the time to consistently "rest" especially in the presence of God.  The scrapbook retreat was not a formal retreat to reflect on my relationship with Christ, but informal.  I spent time in the word, which was much needed.  The other thing that was much needed was "SELF" time. I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE serving others and being about God's business but I will not have the strength to do this if I don't take the time to be energized, refreshed and renewed. 
To face life’s many challenges
And overcome each test,
The Lord tells us to take the time
To stop. To pray. To rest. —Sper

Refreshed: As I pulled at my bible Saturday morning to spend some personal time with the Lord; I asked the question I ask Many, many times before.... "GOD why am I sooo  tired... I feel exhausted, I am drained... I feel as If I have nothing left to give......"  In the soft, gentle whisper that gives us the assurance of his adoration for us.... He simply whispered..... "whose strength have you been relying on????"  UGH!!! I knew the answer as this was the FIRST time ALL week I had pulled my bible out!!!  Last week I had relied on my strength as I was far TOO BUSY to stop, pray and rest!!! Even as I type this I say "WHAT?" sounds crazy, but O so true..  If we DON"T prioritize our time and put our divine almighty God first; so that he can order our steps to be obedient to his will, we will burn out EVERY TIME!!!!!!! Only in the refreshing of HIS strength will we find the resources to move forward in our service for Him..... 

Reflection: This week I spent more time reflecting, and reminiscing over the past. As I pulled pictures out to work with... Oh the memories; some brought a since of sadness as I longed for things to have been different.  Some were happy memories as I remembered the joys of my life; and yet others brought humorous memories, especially looking back and realizing that I do not have the gift of photography even though I pretend I do... Oh to go down memory lane!! What a joy this is to have had the opportunity to reflect on my life and remember where I was, where I'm at right now, and where I'm going!!! 

Laughter: This is a favorite of mine.. Anyone who knows me knows I love to laugh!!! Laughter is truly the best medicine...

So as I look over this past weekend I am THANKFUL for TIME; time to rest, time to be refreshed, time to reflect, time to laugh and time to retreat!!!!!!!

Thursday, November 8, 2012

Day 6 of Thankfulness!!!!!

               Sisters are different flowers from the same garden. ~Author Unknown


I have had the privilege to not only have one biological sister, but 5 others as well!!! I was adopted by my grandmother who had 4 of her own daughters... One of those daughters had a best friend who has been a part of the family since my sister and I were little allowing me to be blessed with SIX SISTERS!!
So the question I have for all of my sisters..... Which FLOWER to the GARDEN are YOU?????
                        So on day 6 I am thankful for my Sisters!!!

             A sister is a forever Friend.~Author Unknown

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Day 5 of Thankfulness!!!!!!!

I am so Thankful for my NEPHEW!!!!
I am so grateful to have been a part of his life.... We have had such wonderful times... I truly miss him deeply..... He is the joy of my heart... God blessed me with three children and saved a little room for another person to fill it!  He had me wrapped around his little finger from day one!!! Don't tell my children but he has definitely had "special treatment"  Aunt Na would do just about anything for this lil' guy!! I LOVE HIM so much...........


Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Day 4 of Thankfulness!!!!

"Your family and your love must be cultivated like a garden. Time, effort, and imagination must be summoned constantly to keep any relationship flourishing and growing."
Jim Rohn 


I know day two was my husband and day three was my children, but as a whole I am thankful for the bond that we share!!! I am thankful for the time we spend together; laughing, crying, sharing, playing and praying together... Our family is building memories that will last a lifetime. 
And for this I am thankful for FAMILY MEMORIES!!!!

Monday, November 5, 2012

3 days of Thankfulness!!!

        When each of the children were born I would rock them... I would look into their eyes and simply gaze at the beauty and the miracle that God had given me... I wanted to create a tradition; something they would grow up and remember, so I dedicated a few words of a  song to each of them.  Each words had to fit their character so it would take me a few weeks to come up with the PERFECT song.. The kids have faithfully heard the words of their song after all these years!!!!
   "You are so beautiful
To me
You are so beautiful
To me
Can't you see
You're everything I hoped for
You're everything I need
You are so beautiful
To me"
    "The smile on your face Lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes Saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand Says you'll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best When you say nothing at all"

   Okay this one.. I had to change slightly.......

"My darling angel, my darling angel
you are friend when I'm in need baby

My darling angel, my darling angel,
you're sent from heaven to me, baby"

I am Thankful for MY CHILDREN!!!!

They have been the joy of my heart
They have been the reason I sing
They have been the answer to prayers
They have been the 3 Blessings I could Never imagine my life without!!!!!!


Sunday, November 4, 2012

Day 2 of Thankfulness!!!!

                                                     I am thankful for my husband!!!!

My Blessing In Life

© Jessica L. Newsome
Every morning I wake up and see,
The most handsome man lying next to me.
He's the one I cherish
and love,
A blessing sent from Heaven above.
I will love him as a faithful wife should,
And do everything for him I could.
I would let him know everyday,
That I love him more than words can say.
For the three children we have together,
And the love for God in each other.
It will keep our love for each other strong,
And the Lord will guide us away from all wrong.
God has blessed me with an amazing husband.  Our road has been difficult with so many twists and turns... In those twists in turns has come much Happiness!!! I am so grateful to be spending my life with the one who I truly call my best friend.   Looking back at all the progress we have made I wouldn't change it for anything... We have learned so much together.  We have learned:

after The sad times..... brings hope
after The fearful times.....brings courage
after The angry times..... brings peace 
after The happiness........brings connection
after The experiences......brings growth

Thank you for being a part of my life for 22 years now!!