Wednesday, January 21, 2015


The pathway is broken and the signs are unclear
And I don't know the reasons why you brought me here.
But just because you love me the way that You do
I'm gonna walk through the valley if you want me to.

Cause I'm not who I was when I took my first step
And I'm clinging to the promise You’re not through with me yet.
So if all of these trials that bring me closer to You
Then I will go through the fire if you want me to.

And it may not be the way I would've chosen
When you lead me through a world that's not my home
But you never said it would be easy
You only said I'd never go alone.

So when the whole world turns against me
And I'm all by myself
And I can't hear you answer my cries for help
I'll remember the suffering that your love put you through
And I will go through the valley if you want me to.

Ginny Owens~

This song has played over and over this afternoon for me as I feel my health has been a deep valley lately!  It comes all on the brink of me preparing for us to walk across our Jordan. Boy, sometimes it just piles on!

But during these troubling times, God does whisper gently if we are just still to hear.  It may come in the form of  a phone call of encouragement, a friend texting scriptures, friends who are willing to pray when the prayer call has gone out, a child who unexpectedly cleans the house (which acts of service is one of my love languages) or another child who brings home dinner, or simply an envelope! Yes, an envelope.... Let me explain this one.

So, yesterday Mike and I had several errands to run during his day off.  It was the first day I had started feeling better after a week long battle with this cold.. ON a side NOTE, I am so THANKFUL for the FRIENDS who began to pray for me as I emotionally was depleted on Monday night!!  The day started out well as I woke up with the relief from the pain from a terrible two day sinus headache... We needed to take the suburban to the shop; the power steering pump needed fixed and we were hoping if we got it the shop early enough they could squeeze it in.   Needless to say they said it would be an hour or two before they could get to it, so Mike and I made the best of the time.  After, and hour and half of trying to get ahold of our son, We went and got our sons truck from work and drove home for lunch.  In the meanwhile, we had been in contact with the shop and gave permission to fix the suburban but it would take a couple of hours. We continued to do the list of things we set out to accomplish for the day, with many hiccups along the way. One of the hiccups: As we were heading back into town, Kirks truck ran out of gas. (he has something wrong with his fuel indicator, so even though he has gas, it will read as if there isn't and shut down, its' a big guessing game) Mike started walking back to camp, as I began to call people.  I sat in the truck freezing for 35 minutes before Mike returned with a gas tank. SO, we were on our way again after the minor hiccup. We get to the bank so that we could have papers notarized, and I realize I do not have an envelope, which means after this visit, we would need to make yet another stop and buy a box of envelopes for one envelope..  As we were sitting there at the bank and our papers were done, we were asked if there was anything else that could be done to help us... to which I replied, "Actually I have a strange request, is there any way you have an envelope for these papers so that we can mail them?" She happily went and checked and came back smiling, as that was the only envelope they had! I KNOW, I KNOW it sounds crazy ridiculous that this small thing would make me happy, but given the fact that I was still weak from being sick, and the day that we had... I was to the point where I needed something small, and this was it! I thanked God quietly in my heart for eliminating another stop, to which the pile of other small blessings began to happened!
Needless to say we didn't get home until 6:00p.m. yesterday, after only being home for lunch.  I was exhausted! 

By the end of the day, the many small blessings that continued to come during the adversities of yesterday amounted into something big, and overall the day ended up being a day that we can look back at and add to the many adventurous days that both Mike and I share together.  ITs the smallest things in life that creates the biggest memories sometimes... However, if we are not in tune with the smallest things, they are the ones that can be completely forgotten about, or shown the least thankfulness.  God is looking for servants who are willing to have a thankful heart.

Colossians 1:10-12
"10 so that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God, 11 being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, 12 and giving joyful thanks to the Father, who has qualified you[a] to share in the inheritance of his holy people in the kingdom of light

Yesterday was a perfect example that even though God wants us to walk through the valleys for a time in our life's he promised that:

****I'll remember the suffering that your love put you through And I will go through the valley if you want me to.

Sunday, January 11, 2015

**Our Jordan River**

Deuteronomy 31:8 "The Lord Himself goes before you and wiIl be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid do not be discouraged"

Isaiah 55:9 "As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoights than your thoughts"

So I'm working through this Bible study called "Life is a Battle" and it's based on Joshua. Yesterday God revealed to me a few points just in a time when I needed to hear them the most...

1) Joshua 3:4 says "then you will know which way to go since you have never been this way before"

~The journey that we walk sometimes can be scary because we've never traveled it before; but in those times where we feel afraid God wants us to focus on him.
~ God is with us regardless of how we feel. When we can't hear him, there's a saying that says "The teacher is always silent during the test".  God is a living God he cares for us,  he wants us to keep going even though it's scary on the other side of the Jordan. We all come to our own Jordan and there is a blessing on the other side;  but in order to get to the other side, we have to trust and not retreat and keep going...
~ The more we get to know God by spending time in His Word and in prayer; the less we are going to worry about our raging rivers. We learn the most about God when our lives have the most turmoil, as we are forced to turn our eyes on Him.

Joshua 3:5 "Joshua told the people Consecrate yourselves, for tomorrow the Lord will do amazing things among you"

~We need to be separated, which means holy devoted. God can't do great things in our lives if we refuse to give up the sin that is holding us bondage.

Joshua 3: 16 " the water from upstream stopped flowing"

~ God is always working upstream.  He will work on our behalf when we don't even realize he is doing it. God is a personal God and He cares for each detail of our lives. He often will wait until the last minute because He wants us to trust him, He knows we can't do it on our own...

    I feel we have come to the raging waters of our Jordan. The question is: Are we going to trust enough to step into the water? Knowing all the while, that God goes before us, he works upstream on our behalf, and that he will never leave us or forsake us. That His ways are higher than our ways....
The answer is Yes! BY His strength, and by faith, Mike and I will be stepping into our Jordan River... we will hold on to the promise that there is Blessings on the other side! 

Tuesday, January 6, 2015

Things to focus on 2015

      Instead of establishing resolutions or goals for the 2015 year, which seems to always get broken; I have decided to make a list of things that I will FOCUS ON!!

1) Some already know the word I chose for this year, which was communication.
So I will work hard on focusing on this on different levels, and asking God to show me how and what this will look like~

2) Read 12 books~
{I know that seems like a little goal for some, however I do not read much so I am trying!! }
The first one I am starting with is:            "be angry but don't blow it"
by Lisa Bevere

3) I want to focus on my blog~
{I know, I know I have used this one before.. again I am trying}

4) I want to focus on the the transition & change that we feel is coming~

5) I want to focus on Decluttering~

6) I want to focus on finishing the second semester of home schooling strong & organized~

7) I want to focus on my husband~
Working on date nights, devotions and just growing stronger as a couple.
We will work on starting a small group doing a study by Lisa & John Bevere

8) I want to focus on yielding to the Lord and His desires for me.. I want to focus on allowing Him to prune me so that I can bear much fruit~

John 15: 1-4 " I am The True Vine and my father is a gardener, he cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit while every branch that does not bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful. You are already clean because of the word I've spoken to you. Remain in me and I will remain in you . No branch and bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine, Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me"

9) I want to memorize 24 verses & the book of James~

Beth Moore did a study on James. . I went through it but never thought I could memorize verses, let alone a whole chapter or even book.. Well I am challenging myself and pray that God will help me hide these words in my heart!!
Also, Beth Moore is challenging women to memorize a verse every two weeks for a year... my first verse I chose is

2 Timothy 3:16-17 " All Scripture is God breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting, and training in righteousness, so that the man of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work.

10) Lastly, I want to focus on being a mom that each of the kids need me to be~
I want to use my words to bless and encourage my children. I want to inspire them and lead by example. I want to focus on praying for my children that they  have a fresh & renewed hunger and thirst for the Lord. I want to work on being more positive,  and focus on the joy of the many trials we face...
James 1: 2-4 " Consider it pure joy, my brothers whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance, perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete not lacking anything

Saturday, January 3, 2015


     This evening our camp Rivercrest staff got together for a reunion. It was so nice seeing everyone and hearing where they were in their lives currently.  We played games, We laughed and enjoyed each others company.....
    I started wondering if that in fact will be how the reunion will take place, of other believers of Christ, when we get to heaven?
    Then I started wandering if I was doing enough to advance the kingdom of God so that others have the opportunity to come to the "reunion"?

  Then I started wandering if words truly have an impact on others;  is my words making an impact?? 

Just like the many gifts that were put in the middle of the floor for others to choose from we have gifts God has given to us & it is our job to turn around and give these gifts back to him by using these gifts to advance his kingdom & to show glory to His name.

Then I wandered am I using my gifts that God has given to me effectively?? 

I want to be both accepting and giving this year. I want my eyes to see the lost & hurting. I don't want to miss opportunities to share the good news to those who are hungry for the truth. I want to be used by God so that.. one day when it's our turn to have the Big Heaven Reunion we will be able to see as many people there; that we can all look around and be thankful that the greatest gift that was given  to us all was Jesus himself when he took upon his shoulders, our sin, & laid down his life for us!! 


Thursday, January 1, 2015

Last year's Reflections

As many of you have done I have been reflecting over this past year! I have struggled remembering some of the moments that really made up 2014...
We had our great moments such as:

~Attending "The Art of Marriage" weekend
~Kirks Graduation
~Visiting with my sister & Nephew
~Spending time with the family at Mahoney & Fremont Lakes
~Going with the ladies to watch
"Mom's Night Out"
~Enjoying families at the Camp Rivercrest Family Camp
~Starting my 4th year home schooling
~Going home for Thanksgiving
~The many nights of cards games, &  investing many hours developing friendships
~Traveling to Missouri TWICE
~Getting the opportunity to go to the Joyce Meyers conference
We also had our bad moments:
~Replacing the motor in our suburban
~Going through some hardships
~My back
~Owens accident
We also had our blessings:
~Financial provision for our motor
~Attending the Joyce Meyer conference
~Mike & I walking through a valley and having God reveal His promises to us
~ Being a part of Camp Ministry
~Financial support
~Winning a gift card to The Cheesecake Factory for a special date..
~Seeing our son graduate
~Restoring friendships
~Seeing my children turn 19, 17 & 14
~Celebrating the holiday season
~A math tutor for our son

And.. as I looked back at some of the goals I made & reflected back on my word I had chosen (balance)
I realized that most my goals were accomplished & although I am still working on balancing different areas of my life I am, moving on to the new year.. 2015!!!

My new word is communication!

I want to strive on communicating with friends & family more in person, writing encouraging letters & Sending them!!! Using the phone to communicate. 
I am wanting to invest in friendships by showing others that their time is valuable!
My daughter said one time that I worry more about my phone than her.. that was hard for me to believe. These years are precious moments that I don't want to waste.  I want to invest in communicating with not only her but my family as well.

I am looking forward to 2015.. it will be a year of transition.. Each day will be a new day that we will be given to further His Kingdom. It is an untold story but God knows the plans he has for us!!
** JEREMIAH 29:11